Bad Blogger

 

I’ve come to a difficult realization.

I am a Bad Blogger.

When February began I decided, with more enthusiasm than sense, to commit to doing February’s NaBloPoMo challenge. That is, to write a blog post every day in the month of February.

I thought it seemed doable. There was a general theme that we could choose to use or not, and no other rules except to blog every day.

So, even though I was still working on Monster Project, I went ahead and threw my hat in the ring.  

 

As of and including this post, I have done 11 posts in 18 days. That’s a very good record for me, but it’s far off the pace I’d committed myself to.

So what went wrong?

I should have been more realistic about Monster Project, for one thing, but I thought somehow I could squeeze in some short posts, use photos for a couple of days, sort of make do until the project was done…but that didn’t happen.

My biggest problem is that I just can’t write fast—or short. What I thought would be short posts ended up taking more time than I figured on. My second problem is needing too much time to figure out what to write about. When I started, I had a few ideas that I thought could get me through the first week, then I trusted in coming up with more. But once I jotted down a few notes about the ideas, I felt hamstrung about how to develop them. In the little time I had each day, I just couldn’t think things through well enough.

Maybe I just don’t have enough to say and don’t want to clutter up the blogosphere with a lot of trivia.

So I’m withdrawing from NaBloPoMo. I want blogging to be fun and not feel pressured by it. However, I am enjoying blogging again, so I’m not bowing out completely—just “downsizing.” There are still two weeks left in the month, and I’d like to be able to post four or five more times. Maybe I can make that.

I confess that I’ve been a Bad Blogger in other ways, too—that is, in supporting other bloggers. I haven’t been keeping up with all of your blogs, and I feel bad about that. Maybe there should be a “National Blog Reading Month” so that we could all catch up on what our friends and fellow bloggers are writing? In any case, I am trying now to do more visiting and commenting on other people’s blogs, because I really do appreciate the support I get from the community and want to give that back.

In keeping with the February NaBloPoMo theme, I’m taking a new perspective on my blogging life; I’m knowing my limitations. Sure, it’s good to try to stretch your limits sometimes, but we also have to realize when it’s detrimental to other things in our lives. So my new perspective on blogging is:

 

Have fun with it.

 

Don’t feel pressured by it.

 

And give back to fellow bloggers!

 

 

My Gratitude List — February 17, 2014   

My linkup this week with Laurel Regan’s Gratitude List at Alphabet Salad

to share a few things (large and small) that I’m grateful for today in my life.

 

—Generous bloggers who share their expertise (e.g. in crocheting) with the rest of us.

 

—Sharing Valentine’s Day with my wonderful husband and a great dinner at a lovely Italian restaurant in our neighborhood.

 

—Receiving roses and candy from said wonderful husband.

 

—Kind neighbors who help shovel others’ walks and driveways.

 

—Music that brings me back to other times and places in my life.

 

—Sharing Sunday breakfast with my husband at local restaurants before church each week.

 

—Being able to occasionally write a blog post that touches or moves someone or lets them know they’re not alone.

 

 

—That the sun is out today and I can hear the dripping sound of melting outside my window.

 

—Once more participating in the Trifecta challenge and receiving generous comments from other participants.

 

—That the cold I thought I was getting last week never materialized.

 

—That in spite of the fact that I didn’t think I could find enough to put in it this week, I still managed to make up this list!

 

What are you grateful for this week? Please share at Laurel’s  linkup!

 

Our Midwinter TV Break

 

We keep our television in our back room—the sunroom. This room was added onto the house about ten years before we bought it. It has skylights, floor-to-ceiling windows on three sides, and French doors leading out to our deck. We love it in the summer, when we can open skylights and windows and the doors. But in the winter—no way.

 

 

On sunny days the room can be comfortable enough during the daytime. It also has supplementary electric heat (our home has gas). But at night it’s freezing, and it takes a while for the electric heat to warm up to a tolerable level.

 

Several years ago my husband went into the crawlspace underneath and stapled in some insulation, but it didn’t help enough, not with more glass than wall in the room. So in order to get me to watch TV in there, it has to be something very special. And this year it just hasn’t been worth it.

 

I’m a basketball—Celtics—fan, and I’ve spent lots of winter nights over the past years suffering heat deprivation to watch them. We’d bring up a space heater and cuddle under afghans, but it still wasn’t as comfortable as I like to be. This year I’m boycotting the Celtics because of the trade they made that upset me. So nothing has lured me back into the refrigerator.

 

I thought the Olympics would get me back out there, but surprisingly I’m not enough into it this year to make the sacrifice.

 

And I’ve discovered something better.

More time eating in our dining room instead of in front of the TV. More time to talk with my husband, to listen to music, to play board games. And best of all, more time to read! I’ve just finished my fifth book since the beginning of the year, and I’m loving not having the distraction of TV. We really don’t watch any shows regularly, so I don’t feel I’m missing anything.

In a couple of months the Red Sox will be back, and we’ll be out there watching them. Hopefully by April the snow season will have finally passed and we’ll have more comfortable temperatures, even if we do need a blanket for a little while.

 

In the meantime I’m enjoying my “sabbatical.”

 

 

 Why I Write…

 

In response to a recent blog post by Laurel Regan (who continues to inspire me at Alphabet Salad), here are some of the reasons why I write.

 

I write out of my love for stories and for language.

I think I was born loving stories and remember from an early age being captivated when my mother would read to me.

My love of language, its sounds and rhythms, was also formed early in my life through Dr. Seuss’s books and Rudyard Kipling’s Just-So Stories (“the great grey-green greasy Limpopo River, all set about with fever-trees…”).

 

I write out of my need to create.

I think all of us have a need to be creative and that we do it in untold numbers of ways, whether we have and raise children, plant gardens, take photos, style our own or other people’s hair, knit, or tinker with cars. Writing is the one creative endeavor that I think I’m good at.

 

I write because I express myself much better that way.

I’m pathologically shy and reserved, and I find it hard a lot of the time to talk to people and to get the words to come out of my mouth the way they are in my head. In college my teachers praised my papers, but asked me why I didn’t say more in class. As an introvert, I need time to construct my thoughts, and writing gives me that time.

 

I write to lose myself in other people’s lives and to give myself a place to go that’s all mine.

Writing, like reading, is a great way to get out of your own perspective and into those of others.

 

I write to explore the mysteries of the human mind.

No subject fascinates me so much as this: the unknowability of the mind and soul, the secrets we all contain that we may not even be aware of ourselves. I love getting inside a character’s mind and experiencing with him or her—particularly characters who struggle with obsessions, passions, or some kind of mental illness.

 

I write because it’s challenging.

Sometime people assume that, because we can write, it must be easy for us to write. Nothing could be further from the truth. The best writers make it look easy by concealing the hard work they do. When you read a good novel, you have no idea how many rewrites the writer went through, how much thinking, rethinking, planning, improvising, changing plans, eliminating characters and creating new ones, cutting dialogue, and so forth. All of these things are part of the writer’s search for the perfect way to say what she or he wants to. It’s not easy, it’s not always fun, but it’s a journey well worth taking—even if we’re the only ones who ever read our writing. And writing is something you can always get better at! I hope to be writing—and learning—till the end of my life.

 

I write because it’s stimulating.

Writing keeps the mind active. When I’m not actually writing, I think about writing: about characters and plot situations, about how to develop a new idea, about where in my long-lingering novel manuscript I want to go next. It keeps my mind busy when exercising or taking a shower or doing housework. And there’s that rush when you realize you’ve just written something that’s exactly right!

 

I write to make things come out the way I want them to.

Which, as Woody Allen once said, is awfully hard to do in life.

 

 

 

 

 

Trifecta Challenge

After a long “sabbatical,” I’ve decided to enter the Trifecta Challenge again this week:

 

This week we're asking for exactly 33 of your own words about love gone wrong.  But we're asking that you not use any of the following words: love, sad, tears, wept, heart, pain

 

After the Affair

My virginal self, shy, vulnerable, I brought to you.

In cars, hotel rooms, camptents.

In your home when you were alone.

I said Give me life. Give me meaning.

You did.

No regrets.

 

 

 

What I’m grateful for today…. (February 10, 2014)

 

Another linkup with Laurel Regan’s Gratitude List at Alphabet Salad

to share a few things (large and small) that I’m grateful for today in my life.

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I need to make this list after a hectic day!

 —Having an essay featured on the blog of the literary magazine The Quotable.

—A warm, comfortable home in snowy, freezing weather.

—That having a dog forces me to get outside at least once every day for a walk in snowy, freezing weather, when I’d otherwise hibernate inside my warm, comfortable home.

—My precious, funny, slightly (okay, more than slightly) neurotic dog, Honey.

—Little doggie boots to protect Honey’s paws from treated salt on sidewalks.

 

 

—Finishing up another big work project.

—Getting my car out of the ice and snow so I could get to UPS to return my big work project.

 

—Having work that I like—just having work at all—at a time when so many people don’t (regardless of the fact that I sometimes complain about it); and, relatedly:

—Having finished college at a time when it was possible to get a job after graduation.

 

—SpellCheck: for all the absurdities it’s capable of, it’s invaluable in catching little things like spacing errors and misplaced punctuation—mistakes that are easy to make in Track Changes and hard to catch when proofing on screen.

—Bailey’s Irish Cream.

—Spontaneous conversations with strangers in public places.

—Having a vital theater and music community and two art/independent movie houses in our city and state.

—That spring training starts next week! When baseball comes, can warm weather be far behind?

 

 

The Monster Manuscript

 

I’ve already fallen behind on my February blogging, but with good reason. Here it is:

 

This is the editing project I’ve just finished—30 chapters and around 1000 pages. Due next Tuesday. Because of tight publishing deadlines, I was given four weeks by my client to do this, whereas I normally have about six weeks on a project this size.

The first pass is DONE!! Now to go back through over the next few days and VERY quickly review the pages with Track Changes turned off to catch anything that jumps out at me.

So with no further ado I head back to my edited files. Hopefully once this is done I’ll catch up somewhat on my NaBloPoMo commitment. Was I crazy to sign up? Probably. But hey.

Sometimes pressure is good for us, right??